Ahh, the end of a strange and contemplative week for me. My head occupied with thoughts of the future...will I be doing this dead-end, but enjoyable, job for another 15 years, or will I finally take the leap and live the way I deserve to, doing what I'm best at and not what is comfortable.

I have so many "loops" that constantly play in the back of my mind, that speak of my feelings of worthlessness and continually thread my mind with reasons not to move forward and into what would make me happiest. Voices I have created subconsciously, and subscribe to; and that are negative in their instruction and consequence. Not in any particularly dark way you understand, but just the subtle influences many of us have at the back of our mind, that keep us from being fully who we really are.

The challenge is changing these habits of thinking, a process that has been particularly noticable to me these past weeks.....Where am I leading myself?......Is it what I most want for my life?......Will I ever finally take the step forward into what I most would like to be?....and, What is that for me?.....and, How long am I going to be content with asking questions, and never really finding and acting on answers?........

Love, Light and Peace,
Eny.